On his absence

I open my eyes to the morning
It's a day without you a day of mourning...
Why is the mindscape steadily fogging
Why is this absence consuming absorbing...
Tossing up things here and there.
Blurred my vision, my thoughts bizzare,
I stretch out my hand
And there you are.
Like every time...
Just a step afar
I open my eyes again
Waging the streaking sun,
Stretching out and grasping empty air
Thoughts of him, Nothing else and none.
I give up fighting the sun pouring in
I give myself a shake, the day has begun
Mundane tasks, my focus i shun
Staring, searching  the far horizon
Rings again that question
Who is he?
The question is unanswered
and forever will be
The mystery is exciting -
just for me?

After the meeting, we decided to narrow down on what id wear for the show, so we went shopping. Yes him n I... And my god! I have hardly seen any man who's so happy to shop. I swooned at his taste. I had a harrowing time trying hard not to blush... We saw some stuff, i tried on a few clothes... He'd nod to say no and say "beautiful" like he meant it when something worked. We didn't really find the best stuff. As we were leaving  though we happened to see some stuff on a large discount, we looked for a while and on an impulse he bought some junk jewellery n i sighed thinking twas for one of those women in his life, it made it worse that i had liked one of the pieces but kept quiet as he bought... I tried but couldn't hide the jilt... Nobody buys stuff for me like that, nobody looks at something pretty n closes their eyes n think it'll look great on me... The way he was at that moment for somebody else. What followed was a sulky me and some idle coffee conversation.

  The day ended. Thankfully. He held on to the gifts he'd bought throughout... I was still sulking. "what's come over you, what happened?"  He kept prodding. We then had an awful conversation about kids, family or the lack of both.

 Then came the time to leave AND as we said bye he said " ok don't say/think anything else, there's nothing to it, i just saw these and thought they'd look great on you and bought it for you, nothing else to it" and handed over the packet to me.
 Really ! :-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-) Oh! There is a God after all